It's
that time again. Two years. I'll be honest, there are many days that I wonder why I do this blogging thing. Writing can be so isolating, so time-consuming (especially when you work full-time and go to school full-time), so frustrating. Especially when I am all tapped out of ideas or words. Bigbad and I were watching one of the morning programs and the artist Chuck Close was on for the Note to Self segment and said this:
What a kick in the pants! I hope I can get to that point. Just sit and write and not give a damn about whether what I'm writing fits into the mold of this blog or is the right phrasing to be acceptable for everyone or is scheduled to publish at the right time. I hope to not feel censored or stifled. I hope I can put aside fear and just write. I hope I can shake off certain anxieties about readership and expectations and just show up and get to work.
And I'm going to say the thing that makes me feel inferior and small. I hope I can get better though all of that. I don't want to produce something amateur. I hope I can write and be proud.
- Best books (please do not judge me for not being able to narrow down more than this): A Land More Kind than Home, The Night Circus, Songs for the Butcher's Daughter, Old Country, Absolutely True Diary of a Part Time Indian, Glaciers
- Most proud: Marmie graduated, I completed two 5ks, I was accepted in to graduate school
- Best repurposing/upcycling: Filing cabinet dry bar, cereal box journals, t-shirt pillow and t-shirt stockings
- Travels (near and far): West Coast (L.A.), Asheville, and Charleston
- Best meal: @ Klara's (Czech restaurant), Ice Cream Taste Test (maybe not a meal, but sure was fun eating it all)
- Most pinned: the work trip cocktail recreated at home
- Collection growth: vintage cameras (received another for Christmas from the Bigbad parents) & games (we were given Monty Python Fluxx and purchased Dominion after game night with friends)
For every comment, for every email, for every like, for every pin, for everything-- thank you. I sincerely have enjoyed it. I am so happy to have "met" some of you from this little hobby blog of mine. Let's keep it going.
5 comments so far. What are your thoughts?
I can so appreciate your feelings. I often wonder if I shouldnt just write the swan song post and move on. My little blog isnt particularly well written, or organized, sometimes I don't post when I say I will. Does it really matter? Buy then I remember how much it pushes me to keep trying to be better. To take better pictures and to post better content, and I just keep trying to find my voice.
Im glad you keep posting too! Happy Blogiversary!
I cherish the windows you open, the glimpses into your thoughts. You are a beautiful writer, never doubt it.
@PJ- Aww... PJ I totally get this. I really hope my post doesn't sound like whining. I do get some feelings of inadequacy about blogging sometimes. I'll notice others are getting noticed and have far more success and I'll tell myself, "Well, they work at it. It's their job." I don't have the time to make blogging my job nor do I really want my existence totally wrapped up into what I present on the blog. But if this space is a creative place to find voice and find purpose to find new skills, then I am happy.
@BBM- Thank you. It helps having a space to put them sometimes. Too much of the cacophony of life drowns them out and I forget to say, "Hey...this was a big deal....maybe."
Happy anniversary! You're right: It can be exhausting, unrewarding, and too time consuming. But I hope you'll continue writing. More than any other blogger I read, I like the way you discuss the importance of family, memories, and heirlooms.
@Jen: Best compliment I think I've received for my blog. Thank you, thank you.
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