But this is his first week gone. And let me take the time to set up my pity party for one over here. I miss him something fierce. I know I'm going to get the eye rolls from some folks who think I'm pathetic, but Bigbad is the Simon to my Alex. It isn't co-dependency because I can pump my own gas and we don't share the same email address (I still find that so weird). It's only we are used to each other's company. When we taught at the same schools, we were rarely apart. So it feels so strange knowing that about a third of our week will now be spent in separate states.
I have carefully constructed a schedule for the first few weeks to keep me busy, to keep my mind off of his absence. I've been doing tons of school work (blech), going to the gym, following that with a bourbon bacon cheeseburger (the only logical move after burning off calories), and getting lost in the wormholes of Teen Mom gossip. And this lonely valentine will work late at a hockey game.
I just wanted to apologize for a lot of the radio silence. I'm missing that guy, I'm thinking about him, and I'm trying to pack in lots of distractions. Trust me, you would not want an actual blog post from me right now because I'm detailing my dreams in excruciating details to family and co-workers, trying to get them to analyze the crazy and detailing my lunch (ala Marshall and Lily) because hey it was really good. But I'll spare you all that nonsense.
I'll be back to normal soon as I settle into this new schedule. A pity party can't rage on forever. And I apologize for any melodrama. Those in long distance relationships or dealing with deployments certainly have my sympathy, and I admire the grace with which they handle separation (real separation). I need to adapt to this absence by training myself that aloneness is not loneliness, and aloneness allows me opportunities (maybe not as grand and elaborate as Folger, but opportunities all the same) that I don't have when Bigbad is here. I like this video a lot. It gives me some ideas.
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